There's a sadness demon in my brain,
he carries bags of tears,
he forces me to be in pain,
and overcome by fears.
Talking therapies and all these meds,
are not the cure; i'm sure,
but if they send him straight to hell,
i'll fight for life once more.
There is a boundary I cannot cross,
a love I cannot seize,
a love that seems one-way.
(Some times there are instances,
moments in life I think you see me,
you see me how you used to.)
We talk always,
forever honest,
closest friends,
however, it won't ever happen.
Boundaries of people,
boundaries of distance,
one thing or another,
that crops up in life's journey.
The object of my desire,
lust and love,
love with many boundaries,
a love that will never be.
Engulfed in the Black Dog,
in the thick fog,
uneasy,
in a haze,
a full-on maze,
complex and repetitive thoughts,
a struggle and a slouch,
too much gravity,
and a thick weight over me.
Haunting lowness,
that nothing consoles.
There's a sadness demon in my brain,
he carries bags of tears,
he forces me to be in pain,
and overcome by fears.
Talking therapies and all these meds,
are not the cure; i'm sure,
but if they send him straight to hell,
i'll fight for life once more.
There is a boundary I cannot cross,
a love I cannot seize,
a love that seems one-way.
(Some times there are instances,
moments in life I think you see me,
you see me how you used to.)
We talk always,
forever honest,
closest friends,
however, it won't ever happen.
Boundaries of people,
boundaries of distance,
one thing or another,
that crops up in life's journey.
The object of my desire,
lust and love,
love with many boundaries,
a love that will never be.
Engulfed in the Black Dog,
in the thick fog,
uneasy,
in a haze,
a full-on maze,
complex and repetitive thoughts,
a struggle and a slouch,
too much gravity,
and a thick weight over me.
Haunting lowness,
that nothing consoles.
I am so going to fail my degree.
I've lost my passion for art.
I'm not in a good place in my head.
I'm sat drinking coffee and wondering what the hell my future will be, if I have one at all.
I think my middle name must be FAIL.
So another year of university is over, and of course I have totally failed... Oh well, it's not been the best of times, for personal reasons, so now I am sorting out mitigation to return and hopefully complete the course. Perhaps over the summer I will come up with some feasible ideas for making short films... the equipment is so heavy though and the technical video stuff is rather...technical... and complex.. >.<
Perhaps because I'm not having work shown at the end of year show, I can relax and enjoy the exhibition more, since I won't be concerned about what people think of my work. There's nothing like putting your heart and soul into some
I seem to be going through a black and white phase... i went through one before, mainly using 35mm film back then, but now my attentions are on my DSLR to produce black and white shots, it's much simpler.
I am also hoping that in the near future i get a polaroid pogo to play with and perhaps a holga or diana.. also came across some cute japanese cameras called 'ikimono' cameras, which i would like to have a look at. They apparently take 110 film but from the pictures i've seen, i don't know how the film would actually fit in the camera. O.o
also just bought myself a new compact digital camera to take to Venice with me. :)
So yeah.. at the